Thursday, January 15, 2009

Happy Birthday Jackson

7 years ago today, January 15, 2002, our first son was born. He was stillborn as a result of a blood clotting disorder that we were unaware that I had. We had been trying to have a child at that point for 6 long years. The devastation that we felt when we found out that he was gone was consuming. We didn't think that we would ever have children at that point. When we saw Jackson, it actually had the opposite effect that you would think. Instead of giving up on our dream of having a child, it spurred us onward. You see, whether born living or not, each child is a special miracle. We looked at him in wonder at the small person we had helped Heavenly Father create. It is amazing how your life can change in a few years.

I can't believe that another January 15th is has now been 7 years since our sweet Jackson was born. Amazing that so much time has passed. I feel like a completely different person than I was back then.

Since Jackson was born still, many major events have occurred in our lives...

We adopted a son.
We had boy/girl twins.
We moved across country.
We have had many major medical events happen - some life threatening.
We had a surprise pregnancy after a m/c and now we have another daughter.

Jackson now has 2 brothers and 2 sisters. Amazing how much life can change in 7 years! People probably think that because we have our 4 living children, we don't think about Jackson ever. Not true at all. I often think about our little boy who didn't have a chance to live. Every January, until this date has passed, I become melancholy. I don't really realize that I am doing it, but it always happens. Then January 15th comes and I am able to breathe again.

Happy 7th Birthday in Heaven, Jackson...I wish you were here with us to celebrate tonight. We love you and look forward to seeing you again someday.

Jackson Bransford Turner b/d: January 15, 2002 at 3:20 a.m.


The Peters Family said...

Sweet, sweet post.
Now I'm really all weepy...reading this after reading the Green's blog.

Kristen said...

I can't believe it has already been seven years. It is amazing how much has happened in such a short time. Love you guys!

Kristi said...

Wow. This made me all schmoopy. Good thing I was in my cubicle with some kleenex.

Meri said...

Let's not forget how blessed he is to have you as parents. That was such a great post in memory of such a special child. I'm glad he gave you the courage to keep up the fight and give him so many little brothers and sisters.

Rilla & Derek said...

Sigh, there are no words.

Thank you for sharing these thoughts, and I'm sorry you had to go through this. Hoe difficult this has been for you.

Kim said...

My heart aches with you. I wish I had seen this post sooner - Happy Birthday Jackson.